Friday, April 29, 2005
Two days from now (Sunday, May 1, 2005) will be the marker for 4 long years without knowing where our baby girl is. :(( This is just another day for most people, but for our family and friends, it marks 4 full years since we've known the whereabouts of Sarah.
We must continue to face each and every morning wondering where she is, if she's okay, if she'll call us, if she's alive - if she's not. We must face another night of wondering if she has a place to lay her head down for a good night's sleep. The sadness is overwhelming right now.
But for the grace of God, I would be dead now. But for the grace of God, I would not be able to go through another day wondering. But for the grace of God, I would be in an institution. Thank you LORD for Your strength, love, comfort. Please help me make it through today.
Maybe tomorrow will be an easier day. Maybe the sadness won't be so overwhelming tomorrow. LORD, please help me live today for YOU and not for me.
Sarah, where-ever you are, know that you are loved and missed more than I can convey with mere words on paper. I am praying for you - to be safe, to be warm, to have a place to lay your head at night, to be surrounded by people who love you, to miss your family.
I love you, I love you, I love you. ~ Mom