Sunday, April 25, 2010

April 25, 2010 - Went to church this morning, as usual. When it came to the time for prayer requests I reminded people that Saturday is May 1, meaning that it will be 9 years on that day, since Sarah first went missing. My heart is heavy and I will not have family with me on that day.
We did a balloon release last year for her, and it was very well attended by several members of our church, and a friend of Sarah's who has been a real sweetheart to me all through these tough times. As a matter of fact, she's the only friend of Sarah's who has not totally shunned our family since Sarah left. She may be the only one who really doesn't know where she went.
This year, a balloon release is almost completely out of the question. I have heard that it's now illegal to do balloon releases due to there being a fear of balloons getting caught on wires and causing problems. It seems like there could be something else we could do, but I am out of ideas and frankly don't have the heart to withstand being around other people who love me, but don't have the same feelings as me about Sarah. Yes, there are many out there that knew her before she was born, spent about her whole life going to the same church as us, took her on mission trips, etc. There ARE many who love her, but nobody loves her quite like family.
Dear Lord, please see our family through this crisis. I beg that You would resolve this for us, because we are not able. Please bring her home to her family. I believe that she is with You, now, but I want to know where she was buried and bring the people to justice. Yes, I know it's for my satisfaction, and You will deal with them in Your time, but our pain is tremendous. Please see us through these next few days, especially. Please keep each one of us busy enough doing productive things, to keep our focus off of ourselves. I know Lord, that this is NOT about me, but it sure does feel like it.
Thank You, God, for listening to my feeble prayers. You ARE the LORD of Lords, and the KING of Kings.

10 comments:

George Huntoon said...

i was throwing out some newspaper ads that i got in the mail today and i was looking at all the missing children. i couldnt believe there were so many. i was wondering why these kids were not on fox news or something. like the big headline cases that come up from time to time. out of all the pictures your daughters picture caught my eye. so i looked up her name on the internet and found your blog. i have been reading it and both my daughters are in the room with me, they are 3 and 5 and i am crying for you right now. i cant even imagine what i would do if i was in your shoes. the one thing i know for sure is that you know people that have information about your daughter. i am a Marine Corps Veteran from Desert Storm and we had ways to get information out of people that did not want to talk to us. i can guarantee you that I could get those people to talk. when i got done with them you would know exactly what they know. i will pray for sarah to come home, in my heart i feel like she will someday. i just cany imagine not having one of my daughters anymore.

Louise said...

Thank you for your comment. Sarah is the youngest of our 3 daughters. We believe that she ran away, however, since it's been 9 years, we feel like she has met with foul play. My advise is to hold your children close and always keep a close relationship with them - no matter what. She was a very special part of our lives and we hold her memory very dear. I hope you have taken the time to watch her video. I would be interested in knowing what state, town, you live in. I have no idea where the ad you mention was placed.
FYI, there are nearly 150,000 long-term missing - not those that run away for a couple of days or weeks, but the ones that have been missing for years.
Blessings, Louise

George Huntoon said...

Louise,

I live in Houston Texas. We live on the westside of town in Katy. I got the missing children ad in the mail this week, it was a center section of newspaper ads that you get in the mail. I cant even imagine the pain of losing a child. My two little girls are everything to me. Just seeing Sarahs video really choked me up. She is so innocent and sweet. If you dont mind me asking, what caused Sarah to want to leave home? if that is too personal to answer i understand. I am so worried about my girls getting into their teen years, i know that can be a touchy time for teenagers and parents. i just remember how much of a handful i was with my parents as a teenager. Well, i am glad i saw sarah's picture, i will always keep an eye out for her. and i will pray for you and your family. take care, george

Juliette said...

Louise, I have followed your blog for years and I have always meant to comment. I have two children and my heart aches for you. I have wanted to write you because I want to explain why I have been drawn to Sarah's story. In 2006 I saw a picture of Sarah and I knew I had seen her before. I called a former co-worker who was with me when I saw the person who I thought was Sarah. I was in Tigard Oregon in late 2003 (November maybe) and I was outside a Starbucks. I saw two older teenagers, and the guy asked me for money for a bus ticket. I looked at the girl and I swear she looked just like your Sarah. I was not aware of the case at the time. I took her in because she looked so similar to another friend of mine, and that was why I remembered her features. I also felt there was something wrong with the situation. It didn't sit right with me. She seemed uncomfortable and quite. I asked if I could drive them to the bus station and buy their tickets for them there rather than give them money. He declined my offer. I stood there for a minute and pleaded with them. They seemed young and it was raining outside. Finally my co-worker and I walked away. We started to drive away and we talked about how the situation was odd. The couple looked to be in a dispute when we left. My co-worker and I got a mile down the road and decided to go back. There was something about the girl that bothered me and she seemed so sad. When we got back, they were gone, and we saw no sign of them.
I always felt awful that I didn't do more at the time. Two years later I saw a missing sign for Sarah, and I almost lost it. I called my friend and he agreed it was the same girl. I so wish I had done something more. I felt 2 years later was to late to say anything. I could never give a decription of the guy, he was young and skinny was all I remembered. I saw on the updates that There had been sighting of her in the Portland area in 2004 and I was certain it was the same girl. I hope that one day you can come to peace with Sarah's dispearance. You and Sarah are in my thoughts often.

Anonymous said...

If you look up Sarah Kinslow on zabasearch.com, which is a people search engine.. quite a few listings come up. A few of them are even listed as being born in 1985, which sounds about her age, and they have phone numbers. Have you tried contacting any of the people at those addresses or phone numbers??

Anonymous said...

I accidentally ran across the Jason's thing on Sarah a while back, and I think I left you a message at that time, but fear I may not have due to them not letting anyone newly register for Jason's anymore.

I saw Sarah at the Walmart in Greenville in the parking lot getting into a red pickup truck some time between when the flyers were sent home about the missing girl from the middle school and summer 2003. I'm sorry I can't be more specific for certain, but I think it was maybe March or April following when Sarah disappeared. At the time, they were getting into the truck as we were walking to our vehicle and I asked my daughter wasn't that the girl the flyer came home about. She said yes and named her as Sarah Kinslow at that time. I asked her was Sarah still missing and she said no. I asked was she back home, and she said no. She said there were problems at home the girl had left to get away from, and that the family knew she had moved to her boyfriend's house out in the county somewhere around Quinlan. I commented it seemed strange they didn't just go get her. My daughter said the problems prevented it, but everything was ok and not to worry about it. By that time, they were gone. We weren't in a position to be able to see a license plate or anything like that. I really didn't think they could possibly be shopping at our small town Walmart if she was still missing as surely many people would recognize her. I never went in there I didn't see tons of people who knew me and my kids, after all. When I later mentioned it at church among several parents and kids of my daughter's age, they all agreed it was known where she was and the police just weren't forcing her home because it was "a bad situation".

I'm really sorry I didn't do something at the time, though I just don't know what given I didn't see a license plate or where they went. I saw what George up there said about people knowing and I would say he is correct. Some of the people at church knew who the boyfriend was. It seemed to be one of our small towns usual open secrets.

julie said...

i hate that this had to happen to our small city,yet sarah has made me a crazy mom about my children. i have some pictures i want to mail you,its not much,but its when we were "cool" and smoking(er literally) at like 14years of age.,the pin i had of her is all sun-dried out,and once my wallet was left/stolen..only good that came outta it that sarah sticker picture was on it. id like to think that shes reading all this,and seeing if you google her she popes up like daisies. i love you Lousie. i hope all is well

Anonymous said...

Mrs Kinslow, I wrote an article about Sarah when I was in HS. I remember interviewing you and feeling a wave of sadness for your situation. I have never forgotten Sarah story and hope someone will quite literally 'grow a pair' and end over a decade of grief for you and Sarahs loved ones.
Also, I saw a Fb pic that looked vaguely similar to her. Ill post the link.. Its a dark haired blue eyedfemale in what appears to be a batman costume...

Anonymous said...

Thinking of Sarah<3 I first found out about her disappearance throught the Adopt a Missing person program from Project Jason. I was on Websleuths tonight and read the thread on her. I can't believe there has been so many sightings if her, and she is still gone. I have faith that she will come home safely to you, you guys are in my prayers.
I write a blog on missing persons and children (Missing Angels & Cold Cases), just basically summing up information and theories or connections, trying to get their faces out there. The more people that see them and know their stories, the better. I would love to write about Sarah sometime as well. I honestly believe that if every state knew about her and saw her face, that she would be home. All my prayers to you and Sarah!
Janessa

gisselle felix said...

I see there are no post from you since 2010, dont give up. She's out there somewhere and im sure one day she will come home. As someone around her age I remember how it was when I was 14-15. Maybe she is just afraid to come home. I left once, I was just scared to come back. I was afraid of my family's reaction. And if the worst scenario is the outcome people need to know that she is not forgotten.